music provides humour

i'm sitting on the subway this morning, listening to some tunes on my mp3 player when i notice the girl sitting in front of me is reading the holy bible. at that very moment my mp3 player (set to random) decides to play "let's talk about sex" by salt n' pepa. i smile to myself.

when it's the girl's stop she gets up and makes her way to the doors. what does my mp3 player play then? "heaven help us all" by ray charles and gladys knight. nice.

CET :o)

when i am grown-up

when i am grown-up i will understand
how BEAUTIFUL it feels to
administrate my life effectively.

until then i will continue to TORCH
all correspondence that bores me
and to DANCE NAKED over the
remnants of its still glowing embers.

edward monkton

do dee do dee do...

currently at a temp admin job this week...they're not giving me much to do so i am very, very bored and spending way too much time on facebook...

dislike: air conditioning so cold your nose runs.

did a four-hour shift at my old pharmacy last night - re-orienting myself to the way they do things so that once i do full day shifts (covering holidays) i'll know what the heck i'm doing - holy crap was it busy or what!?! i was hoping for a quiet tuesday night so i could ease back into things but i quickly remembered that quiet nights are hard to come by at this place. and people are so impatient! they have absolutely no idea what it's like working in a pharmacy and sometimes i just want to backhand them and tell them to piss off. great pharmacist i'll make, eh? :o)

speaking of which, i had a slight panic attack speaking with the pharmacist last night. she told me how the licensing exams are so hard now, and that there's going to be an oral component, and how the heck am i suppose to get an internship in canada when i already have so many other students to compete with? made me freak out a bit. and training my brain to think "canada pharmacy" instead of "british pharmacy" is going to be hard. damn u of t and other canadian pharmacy schools for having such few places and such ridiculous admission hoops to jump through, argh!

anyhoo.

looking forward to friday - drinks, dinner and a concert with sue and e-mail and company. can't wait!

roll on lunch, roll on...

CET :o)

see what i mean?

these shoes are AWESOME!!!

CET :o)

camel shoes

i'm excited because:

a) i bought a new pair of shoes yesterday that are bright orange and yellow and have dark fuscia camels on them. they sound horrifically ugly but they are SO COOL. who can say they have shoes with camels on them? I CAN.

b) muttonface and e-mail are home in t.o. for a friend's wedding; we're having dinner and drinks tonight at a cajun creole restaurant that i'm looking forward to trying...mmm, bring on the jumbalaya...oh, and of course i'm excited to see them too. :o)

c) i joined an ultimate frisbee team this summer that a friend of mine captains. yesterday was our second game (also my second game ever); i scored three points! hat trick baby! it was funny because i tried to high five a teammate who is so frickin' tall that i couldn't reach his hands; another teammate lifted me up so i could high five the first guy. i'm sure we made a funny sight.

d) this summer's shaping up to be busy and fun! i love busy and fun.

e) it's the weekend!!! bring on the sunshine and good times.

see, there's always something to be happy about.

hope everyone's doing well!

CET :o)

oh gossip!

i found out that office boy dumped his girlfriend in the most horrible way! shattered her heart into a billion pieces, poor girl.

i think i got away relatively scott-free!

CET :o)

and...

and yes i know, i am over-analytical and can sometimes make a wee mountain out of a wee molehill.

so sue me.

CET :op

boys suck BIG poo

no e-mail for a week.

wasn't on messenger for a week.

his reason?

he was busy and he took a three day trip to brussels.

grrr.

after berating him for not dropping me at least a quick e-mail, i let the matter go and proceeded to have a decent conversation with him.

i think i might use him just for sex. when i'm in the country that is.

we will see.

CET :o)

and so it begins...

i think today is the first day where i can breathe.

serious craziness leading up to my flight home (yes, i'm back in toronto now); right after my last exam it was nothing but partying, packing, more partying and more packing. said goodbye to friends, had my last dosa with vij as my flatmate (so sad!), spent my last night with the londoner (more on that later) and then BOOM! off on a jet plane to toronto. the weekend was spent attending carnivalissima at the harbourfront centre, followed by woofstock near st lawrence market. yes, the last one was for chili.

londoner: oh lord, what have i done? how do i manage to fuck things up, two days after i get back to toronto??? let me explain...

so my last night with him was great! i'm not going into the (gory) details but oh yes dear readers, it was good. i've been seeing him for about a month now; we didn't have "the talk" per se, but we did agree that we both liked each other very much, but didn't know where this was going, seeing as how i'm in toronto for the summer and things have only gotten started between us.

so he drops me off at the station the next morning and we say our goodbyes; when i'm back in toronto later that day i message him online letting him know i'm home. we have a brief but good chat. the next morning i see him online again and we start chatting...well, at least i'm trying to but he is about as responsive as a log. or a dead animal. let me just say the following:

- i've realized that he can be quite self-absorbed sometimes, always talking about himself or turning the conversation towards him;
- he is slightly cocky/arrogant, though i know for a fact it's a cover for someone who can be quite insecure about himself;
- conversation is a two-way street, do you not agree dear readers? why is it so hard for someone to ask a question about you; why am i always the one to do the asking?
- londoner is a workaholic
- i hate people who "victimize" themselves

so i ask him why he has nothing to say to me and he launches into a diatribe about how he's having the shittiest, most unproductive day, and therefore cannot think of anything to say to me (?). hmmm, i don't know, how about starting with "how are you?"

so basically i kind of let rip, calling him on his self-absorbedness (okay, so that's not a word but so what? bite me. wait, i guess it would be self-absorption) and asking why yet again, it always has to be about him. i was frustrated for many reasons (not just him) and so i admit, i kind of took it out on him. but he sort of deserved it! anyway...

i did apologize for having that kind of conversation with him when it wasn't my intention; i logged off in a huff, telling him to email me if he wants and "perhaps" he'll see me online again. afterwards i felt kind of shitty because that wasn't the time nor place for me to say stuff like that. plus i felt frustrated because i don't want to think of him and i don't want to miss him but i do; i'm just so afraid of getting hurt!

the next day i email him an apology but since that conversation i have yet to hear back from him or see him online. he is online ALL THE TIME, so i wonder if he's blocked me? how can one little conversation lead to this? why am i so over-analytical? ARGH!

so that's it in a nutshell. i guess we'll just have to wait and see what happens. i hate waiting...

what are your thoughts/comments on this?

CET :o(

me? man-eater?

hahaha, that's funny.

i have my first exam tomorrow, eek! just wanted to say hello and to let you know that blogging will be light until thursday when my exams are over.

wish me luck! i'll definitely need it.

CET :o)